diary of a father XII - revolution

today, exactly two years ago I had to leave my family so that I can put that little food on the table. I left in the name of my dignity and belief (not religious belief, that is). those things are mine, what ever happens. the very touching moment was that I had to leave my children and my pregnant wife. less than 24 hours after I set my foot on that foreign land, my child was born. I missed that experience waiting for her at the hospital.

someone reminds me that there is no need to look back. I wonder if the revolutions in Arabs today or in any part of the world were due to the fighters vision of the future. of course, they did. they look up to the future. they didn't want  whatever bitter experience they had in the past would happen to their children. they fought because of injustice. they fought because they think they can change the world. some, like in Egypt, succeeded in doing so in less casualty. some, like in Libya, need to go war for that.

nothing can break the chain between past and future. of course, as we embrace today's life, the past is only use as a guide or reference. don't hold any grudge. so let it be like that way.

comedy of tragedy

I came across quote like this: 'life is a comedy for those who think and a tragedy for those who feel'. but I also heard some one said 'everything in life is a comedy except for the person who experience it'.

tragedy is the antonym of comedy. but both are types of drama. drama is not just about acting but also happens in real life.so I define the 'comedy of tragedy' as a series of tragic events the seemed like a 'comedy' from one point of view. it just like the 'three stooges TV series'. there were a lot of 'tragic' events such as getting hit in the head. but that very event had been viewed as a 'comedy'.

regards

regret

it has been three days since regret is building up in my life. previously, I had told my self that there would be no regret in my life, only bad decision. base on that, I'm able to keep on my perseverance. now, regret is sipping into my mind. bad, eh...

self test

I did some on-line self tests on psychological level. the results were, interesting!

schizophrenia

Schizophrenia ( /ˌskɪtsɵˈfrɛniə/ or /ˌskɪtsɵˈfriːniə/) is a mental disorder characterized by a disintegration of thought processes and of emotional responsiveness.^[1] It most commonly manifests itself as auditory hallucinations, paranoid or bizarre delusions, or disorganized speech and thinking, and it is accompanied by significant social or occupational dysfunction.


- wikipedia.org

diary of a father XI - laugh

kids love to laugh. I get very happy whenever my kids are laughing. as grown-up, I'm lacking of laugh. yes, laugh is not really a good thing to do. but certainly it get you happy. keep on laughing my kids...

history and politics III

well, here in our country, we may have the history to be tried in court. and the guy who is to tried was charged under the 'defamation' title. wait and see...

diary of a father XI - home

I went to a small town yesterday hoping to see my old friend who suffered mouth cancer. I heard his condition is quite bad. sadly I couldn't find his house. may be I'll try next time.

nevertheless, this small town was there I first grew my family. when I got married, I moved to a housing area not far from the town. the town is very small that there is no bank, not even an ATM machine or petrol pump station. but there is a post office. life is so simple those days. simple and happy. while wandering the town I wonder why I opted to left the town and went to a place where life is certainly a lot busy and lesser, much less, happiness.

I hope I can guide my kids from this experience.

history and politics II

until now, the independent historical polemic is still being discuss fiercely in this country. for me, I'm more concern about the high price of food, education, transportation, unemployment. it's always the people who will lose. politicians, I'm getting fed up with what you have been doing so far. please look at the people needs.

foreign powers

to date, many foreign leaders flocked to Libya for whatever reasons. but I think of a friend. today's friends, most of them, are there only when we are in power or wealth. you will lose friends when you lose power and wealth. true friends are difficult to find nowadays. in fact, true human being is difficult to find. what we can see are 'walking machines' with only 'things' in mind.

state of emergency

'A state of emergency is a governmental declaration that may suspend some normal functions of the executive, legislative and judicial powers'
-Wikipedia


when the Arabs spring hit the newsstand few months ago, I learnt that several Arab countries still have state of emergency. the proclamation had been in effect for few decades. for example Egypt (since 1967), Syria (1963), Algeria (1992). but I never thought that my country has the same situation. in fact, there are three emergency proclamations that still not lifted from as early as late 1960s. three! in fact the other one proclamation (mid 1960s) was lifted only because there was another proclamation few years later!

Libya - liberty III

cracks in the rebel's line? don't ...

history and politics

it's very dangerous when history is politicized. a nation will lost its identity and even liberty if the history is manipulated for the few.

but, what the hell. if the history is only a perspective, then get your own version of history. the professor may speak his mind over the media. but you shouldn't change what ever you feel about your version of history. it's yours and nobody can change it. tell the version to your kids and friends.

diary of a father X - history

I always want to learn history so that I can teach my kids not to repeat the same mistakes our fathers had committed. but now I realised that history is... not what I knew before. I can surely understood by now what Winston Churchill meant by 'history is written by victors'. history is only a human perspective. and between my perspective and yours, there will be differences.

well, know I'm not teaching history to my kids but I'm teaching my perspective. good luck!

... about history

History consists of a series of accumulated imaginative inventions.Voltaire


God alone knows the future, but only an historian can alter the past.
Ambrose Bierce


The historian must not try to know what is truth, if he values his honesty; for if he cares for his truths, he is certain to falsify his facts.
Henry Adams


The researches of many eminent antiquarians have already thrown much darkness on the subject; and it is possible, if they continue their labors, that we shall soon know nothing at all.
Artemus Ward


It should be known that history is a discipline that has a great number of approaches.Ibn Khalduin of Tunis


History is a myth that men agree to believe.Napoleon


History is the invention of historians.Attributed to Napoleon


History without politics descends to mere Literature.Sir John Robert Seely


He who has money, lives long: he who has authority, can do no wrong: he who has might, establishes right. Such is history! Ecce historia!
Gottfried Benn


The writing of history reflects the interests, predilections, and even prejudices of a given generation.John Hope Franklin


Not all that is presented to us as history has really happened; and what really happened did not actually happen the way it is presented to us; moreover, what really happened is only a small part of all that happened. Everything in history remains uncertain, the largest events as well as the smallest occurrence.
Goethe


There is no history, only fictions of varying degrees of plausibility.Voltaire

“History is written by the victors.”

Winston Churchill or so they have said ...

"we're not colonised", historian

today, yet another 'prominent' historian denies that this country had ever been colonised. "we were put under the 'protection' (protectorate) of the British Empire", or so he said.

history is not belong to him. it is a fact that the British controlled all aspect of life while they were here. they plundered the wealth of this land. they killed the local people who opposed them. they interfered with appointment of local rulers. they depressed the people voices. they ... what evident more this idiot professor wants to show that we're colonised. this professor was colonised down to his spine!

I don't know what was his motive. political? money? truth? stupidity? did our independent fighters died because they were opposing themselves?

British imperialism and Baha Mousa

so there were few people who had been indicted in the inquiry of Baha Mousa. Justice? I don't think so.

British was one of the powers that colonised and squandered my country for several hundreds years. what is interesting about the British, they colonised my country mostly through agreements. unlike Portuguese or Dutch. even one 'prominent' historian in this country even said 'legally this country has never been colonised, it's only the power of local rulers were exercised by others', or so, he said. what in the world he's trying to say?

currently there are debates whether local independence fighters, who clashed with British security forces, which were locals too, can be considered hero or terrorist. is it a very difficult question to answer? the head of the independence fighters was finally executed by the British.

the British way of colonisation, including mental colonisation, was so successful that after decades the local people still confuse on the fact that the British was actually COLONISING the country.

conflict

one of our media men was shot dead in Somalia few days ago. certainly, during a conflict everybody is in danger. virtually everybody. look back what had happened in Ivory Coast when one of the warlords was killed. the warlord sided the victorious president. in Libya, one of top men in opposition front line was killed. he was one of Muaamar Ghadaffi's men who defected.

there you go.

Libya - liberty III

as what I suspected, some party accused that there was Islamist element behind the uprising. yet the other bloc is suspecting Libya would fall into the hand of the west. in other words the nation will be taking the west instruction. so I say let the people of Libya decide through what ever appropriate channel, e.g. democracy. don't let anything like the previous Turkey experienced. the so-called protector of the constitution, the army that is, can over throw the elected government just because they thought so. let the people decide! leave the Libyan people and nation. give them hand, of course. but no string attached.