wonderful world

my second child is very excited she will be taking part in a school activity tomorrow.

they have such wonderful world to explore. they will learn more than I will ever know. good luck for our children and their tomorrow. as a parent, we should nurture this. do not ever taint their dream and vision.

rainbow

I watched this double rainbow with my kids. when I was a kid, we were afraid to point at rainbow. it was because, according to old folks, one might lose his finger if he point to the rainbow. I wonder why did the story surface?

sakura song

this is certainly not a sakura tree. but 25 years ago a Japanese teacher taught me a very lovely, Japanese traditional song - Sakura. I don't know where is the teacher who taught me Japanese language. to her, I would like to say thank you. a phrase I had not say it to her before.

sakura sakura

noyama mo sato mo

mi-watasu kagiri

kasumi ka kumo ka

asahi ni niou

sakura sakura

hanazakari

sakura sakura

yayoi no sorawa

mi-watasu kagiri

kasumi ka kumo ka

nioi zo izuru

izaya izaya

mini yukan

Cherry blossoms, cherry blossoms,

On Meadow-hills and mountains

As far as you can see.

Is it a mist, or clouds?

Fragrant in the morning sun.

Cherry blossoms, cherry blossoms,

Flowers in full bloom.

Cherry blossoms, cherry blossoms,

Across the Spring sky,

As far as you can see.

Is it a mist, or clouds?

Fragrant in the air.

Come now, come now,

Let’s look, at last!

diary of a father XIV - time in parks

I've tried to count how many hours did I spend with my kids in parks such as above. surprisingly, it is very little. very little indeed. it will be the the time when my kids left me. and I know for certain that I'll regret. the time has passed and nothing I can do. but to regret...

Steve Jobs, family

'Jandali, who is 80, said at the time that he would have been happy to just have a cup of coffee with the son he never knew before it was too late.'


- http://www.ibtimes.com


that's the price of family relationship. even only minutes over a cup of coffee is too valuable to be exchange with anything in this world. now the billionaire had left his money and the dad is also going to leave that green buck sooner or later. it has been my belief that things would never make you happier, people do. people....

regret

it has been three days since regret is building up in my life. previously, I had told my self that there would be no regret in my life, only bad decision. base on that, I'm able to keep on my perseverance. now, regret is sipping into my mind. bad, eh...

self test

I did some on-line self tests on psychological level. the results were, interesting!

schizophrenia

Schizophrenia ( /ˌskɪtsɵˈfrɛniə/ or /ˌskɪtsɵˈfriːniə/) is a mental disorder characterized by a disintegration of thought processes and of emotional responsiveness.^[1] It most commonly manifests itself as auditory hallucinations, paranoid or bizarre delusions, or disorganized speech and thinking, and it is accompanied by significant social or occupational dysfunction.


- wikipedia.org

diary of a father XI - laugh

kids love to laugh. I get very happy whenever my kids are laughing. as grown-up, I'm lacking of laugh. yes, laugh is not really a good thing to do. but certainly it get you happy. keep on laughing my kids...

diary of a father IX - celebration

we're celebrating! my kids' faces are full of smile. even for the two-year old! why can't we, as adult, do the same thing?

diary of a father IV - the birth of a bigger family

I spent exactly five days awaiting for my first child - a son. still clear in my memory I sent my wife to hospital o Monday morning after she experienced sort of bleeding. the hospital was about 30 km away from my home. so, I spent the following nights at relative home nearer to the hospital. and I spent each day in hospital compound.

on Thursday my wife experienced contraction that made her pretty pain. I've never seen such a pain on a face, I cried - really I don't know what to do. but it was yet the time. finally on Friday afternoon, my son was born into this world. no words can described that moment.

today, he's almost as high as his father. I named him after a previous ruler of my home state. my hope for him is one - that he can serve his society, country and religion well, regardless what he is.

diary of a father II

the start of my family is a very ordinary matters. we built our home on love and built our house from pieces of paper. our shoe rack was from boxes and our first car was rather less than ordinary. we washed our clothes by our bare hands and had our less than average food. but it was a happy life then. there was no TV, sofa, even bed or fridge. there were very less 'things' on those days. very much less.

diary of a father

I'm an ordinary people with a very common life style that probably won't attract anyone attention. what I face everyday must have been faced by anyone else in this world. but after such episode with my son, I want to pen down all my life long experience so that all my kids know that I'm an average people but I always want to be special to them. we are given a very short time on this world but the responsibility is so much.

may be I want to start my diary with "to my children, and my wife, and my family. I'm just another ordinary person. but you're all always special to me as I always want myself to be special in your life".

my son II

what shall I do to undo the mistake.

more things

I keep on thinking on yesterday's topic and I believe it is true. more things have never contribute to any value. I think I want to write more about this. really.

yesteryears, 'more things', house and home

yesterday I drove through a place where I brought up my family at the very early stage. it was our first home where we were bestowed with our first child. our working place was not far from the home. the life was easy then. there was no TV, just a radio, a PC without internet connection, no washing machine. we made our own shoe rack from a box. yes, we had a sofa set which was given by my mother, and we still have it. what a life!

then our life became 'more'. more things, more issues, more kids, more responsibility, more problems, and more 'more'. among the 'more', 'more things' definitely never make us happier, never. my God, it was only today that I realised deeply that more problems, issues and all the human related things may get you depressed, but in the end we become more human. on the other hand, 'more things' has never brought any value. a home bring up the family not the house. praise to God.

I've taken my bows
And my curtain calls -
You brought me fame and fortune and everything that goes with it
I thank you all -

But it's been no bed of roses 
No pleasure cruise -
I consider it a challenge before the whole human race -
And I ain't gonna lose 


- 1977

bicycle and my kids

we bought a used bicycle for one of my kids on her excellence performance in academic. when we showed her the bicycle, she was stunning and speechless. I tried all my might not to cry. she looked so happy despite knowing that the bicycle was a used one. it's all that we afford at this moment.

thank God for giving the chance to my kids to excel in their study. and thank God for making all of my kids grateful and understanding. and thank God for bestowing us with our kids.

freedom

I hope that freedom depicts in this picture will persist.

faces

those are faces of my kids, the two most younger. I brought the younger one to a park one morning and told about it to her sister that night. as a result she refused to go to school the next day. so the next day two kids were playing happily ever after at the park, hence the two faces.

they're happy and vibrant. I'm not going to replace that little smile with anything.

Little darling
The smiles returning to the faces
Little darling
It seems like years since it's been here

-1969

the light of a new beginning

exactly 17 months ago, I was 800 km from my home. I just reached there that night after an epic driving, alone. left at home was my pregnant wife and our three kids.

it was my first day in a new job. about 30 minutes from end of the day I got a call from my mother in law that my wife was going to deliver our kids. my God, what should I do. so I went to see my project manager and he advised me to go home and defer the actual report duty to another week. but I told the HR manager that I'll be coming back after the weekend over.

so that evening I grab my car steering and started to drive. I was not pretty sure whether to drive back or what. but next thing I knew I was half way heading home. I got a call late that night that my wife was safely delivered a baby girl. after a short nap, I drove back home only to stop by my parent's house because I'm too exhausted. I drove back the next morning and finally got to see my kid, 12 hours after she was born. I called my HR manager and my project manager that I wanted to defer the formal report duty for another week.

due to that moment, we named the girl with a name meaning 'the light of a new beginning'.

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