The Greek and the Cyprus and the kings

today the Cypriots are facing an axe from the big brothers. again the commoners are denied of their right. in the name of a 'country', they said. sacrifice those laymen to save the nation which they, the commoners, are making up most of the population. true enough sometimes kings were slayed in the name of the country. but, more often than not, they were replaced by another tyranny. those tyrannies kept on replacing each other. they essentially the same. it was always the commoners who have absolutely nothing to do with the ruling class are the ultimate victims. always.

no matter what system do you have, commoners are ever depressed. communism, democracy, kingship, fighter-led nations, every each of it ended with tragedy to the common people. every time. people with power shall never look at those lowly people. but their words are different. not that the commoners believe in those uttered speech. they not even bothered. and as usual they'll suffered.

tight life

I'm heading a very tight life where I got pressed by work, workers, family and financially. I seeking for a way out now. There's no light at the end of the tunnel yet. Not yet. But I will never forget that in the darkness of the tunnel, I know I'm standing on a solid foundation called family. I need to get the light back. I need.

counter offer II

now I'm bombarded with offers. I get a second counter offer from my current employer. life is getting tough here.

my prospective employer promised me a higher pay (and more after confirmation) and freedom in deciding things. but the place will be a little bit further. I'm in the middle of charting my future steps when the second offer came that offer me a higher pay starting next month. but the draw back is it'll be still on contract basis.

what say you?

health check

one of my body functions stopped from its work today. I went to see a doctor and he gave several medicine. but on the way back I just keep on thinking - no matter how small the function of any mechanism in our body, we will suffer.

so keep your health checked and be grateful.

kids grow up

yesterday my kids went for a seminary. they seemed so happy when they arrived at the pick up point. their friends were already there. and they were so ready to spend a day together. they would travel on bus together, eat together, chit chat all by themselves. one day they will eventually leave home and our life will once again quite.

until then, just enjoy the time with them.

diary of a father XIX - every one is special

I was invited to my kids' school. there was a speaker from local university who talked about children development. there was a phrase that I never heard before - 'developmental delay'. a lot of questions were answered. everyone has their specialty and that person must be given the opportunity and support.

the next day I was drawn to watch a TV movie about dyslexia kid. I seldom spend a long period of time watching movie. except is the movie really worth to watch. again the story really tried to portray how every human being is unique. that person has specialty and need to be given opportunity and support.

I guess I was given that opportunity and support. it's other's turn now.

infinity in future II

again, in this picture sea is infinite. if you can walk in straight line, you will end up at the same spot that you started. for my kids, remember that no matter how far you walk, please look back. look back to your basic, your fundamental, your root.

you won't be lost.

Syria, 'Don't Talk to Strangers' by Dio

when TV news aired the picture on Syria conflict, my kids asked why people behave as such. I believe I've told them the answer before. so this time I commented that even a leader who supposedly protect his people, hate his people. to the extent to injure (and even kill) them. so I advice my kids to take precaution on other persons.

just like what Ronnie James Dio said

Don't talk to strangers
'Cause they're only there to do you harm

- 1987

diary of a father XVIII - world cup 2010

this is the under-license ball I bought for my son last year. that's all that I can buy...

ghost of the past

I have to document this type of encounter which happened while I was working away from home a couple year ago. the ghost which I encountered was almost wiped out from my map of memory. it was impossible when we were separated not only by time but also geographical location, or so, I thought. never crossed even in my remotest mind that I would experience again such a terrified encounter. until that moment. it was a stupid and waste encounter.

diary of a father XVIII - tin ore

I brought my family to see this monster last week. this is actually a tin ore dredging floating machine. the length is about 100m, width is more than 10m and depth is about 4m. this particular machine is 73 years old. once, this kind of machine was used by the colonial to steal our wealth. then it was handed over to the locals. and I really don't sure whether the locals were better than the colonials in term of sharing the wealth.

my grandfather worked in this mining activity: as a worker. I told my kids to imagine how he worked in such condition so that he could raised his many kids plus some more of his nephews. while not working he would do a lot more of part time works.

so while the machine symbolised the colonials grip on the locals economy, but it also was the place where my family was raised. there is always two sides of a coin.

diary of a father XVIII - school

only a few days before school kids get their long vacation. after which they will embark on a new level of schooling. I've always tell my kids to do the best. regardless the result we will get, but the most important thing is to do the best. the rest is in God's hand. don't be afraid.

diary of a father XVII - decision

today I'am making one of the difficult decisions I've ever made. as a father I always want the best for my family, even it's not the best for me. I want my family live in dignity and high hope. but sometimes my decision are flawed. I'm just a human being.

diary of a father XV - family outing

the picture above shows part of a train network which explore network of caverns. however, when we arrived there few months ago it was closed. we were told that there was an accident happened in the past and was closed due to that. I hope that they'll find a way to really improve the safety issue. and that my family can get the benefit from the development built from tax payers' money.

diary of a father XV - health

this is a walk way towards a government hospital where one of my relatives was warded for internal organ illness. once my two kids, around 3 and 2 years old respectively, were sick. they had fever and diarrhea. the sickness, however, lasted about two days only. but during that days they just lied down and I was like a mad man. I really didn't know what to do. of course I took them for medical attention. I cried...

they recovered and I felt very happy. I keep on wondering why sometimes I have a heart to scold and beating the kids despite the experience. to my kids, no matter what I did to you, nothing can take you from my heart.

diary of a father XIV - time in parks

I've tried to count how many hours did I spend with my kids in parks such as above. surprisingly, it is very little. very little indeed. it will be the the time when my kids left me. and I know for certain that I'll regret. the time has passed and nothing I can do. but to regret...

diary of a father XIII - teaching economy

this is a sugar cane field located up north of my country. the field is very huge. the final product of this plant is sugar. while cruising the field I taught my kids about economic activities surrounding the area. at least 3 to four  sources of income can be seen along the road.

we finally reached the sugar processing factory. we pulled over looking at the facilities. to my surprise, my wife's uncle told us that the factory paid less than USD2 per day for their temporary workers. at that moment,  my teaching of economic was over. again we're back at discussing the unjust society that we live in. there will be no politician who fight for those workers. it is their own battle. with note that we left the factory.

Steve Jobs, family

'Jandali, who is 80, said at the time that he would have been happy to just have a cup of coffee with the son he never knew before it was too late.'


- http://www.ibtimes.com


that's the price of family relationship. even only minutes over a cup of coffee is too valuable to be exchange with anything in this world. now the billionaire had left his money and the dad is also going to leave that green buck sooner or later. it has been my belief that things would never make you happier, people do. people....

job opportunity

all praise to God. I've received two job offers. both located closer to my home. now I must decided which one I should pick.

interview

I'm going to have another interview tomorrow. this job, is I get it, will bring me closer to my home. sometimes things are so close but somehow you cannot reach it. I pray that I get this job. it has been a very long three years period. too long.