diary of a father III - loss

today I received a news of that one old friends died. certainly death is unavoidable for all living things. death should be able to wake us up to think back what have we done so far. have we hugged our family today. have we called our friends and family who lived away from us. or in the larger scale what have contribute to our society and country and even religion.

I believe all of us have faced a loss, near or far. I've lost a son three years ago. he died at birth. I prayed to God that I could see his eyes. and my prayer was answered when I had a dream. in that dream someone is holding my son. he was quietly falls asleep. his face is clean and his eyes shut. then slowly he opened his eyes and looking to me. and really I can looked into his eyes. just what I was praying for. now I'm praying that I would be able to meet him again.

really life is wonderful and it is human being who make it wonderful. not things.

diary of a father II

the start of my family is a very ordinary matters. we built our home on love and built our house from pieces of paper. our shoe rack was from boxes and our first car was rather less than ordinary. we washed our clothes by our bare hands and had our less than average food. but it was a happy life then. there was no TV, sofa, even bed or fridge. there were very less 'things' on those days. very much less.

diary of a father

I'm an ordinary people with a very common life style that probably won't attract anyone attention. what I face everyday must have been faced by anyone else in this world. but after such episode with my son, I want to pen down all my life long experience so that all my kids know that I'm an average people but I always want to be special to them. we are given a very short time on this world but the responsibility is so much.

may be I want to start my diary with "to my children, and my wife, and my family. I'm just another ordinary person. but you're all always special to me as I always want myself to be special in your life".

my son II

what shall I do to undo the mistake.

my son

I was away from home for a few days when my wife received a letter telling that my son 'hit' his friend. I was shocked and disbelief. so just now we went to see the teacher who signed the paper and got a 'relief' explanation: he was actually involved in a 'rough' play - common to kids, but must be controlled.

but what really made me shocked and speechless was the teacher told us how our son had actually spoke to her (the teacher) on his grievance that I work very far away from home. he, being a quite person, never told us such feeling. and we never asked him. my God, what have I done? I'm such a rascal person who believe in dignity and integrity in 'black and white only' mode. so what is there left for me?

england on fire

so what triggered fire in england? racial cards?

Japan, 'nuclear energy free' society

so finally the Japanese revealed its policy on nuclear energy - 'will reduce Japan's reliance on nuclear power, aiming at creating a society that will not rely on atomic power generation'. and the Japan prime minister has even promised to challenge the 'conventional belief' that nuclear energy is safe. but so far I've yet to see how are they going to just do that. I believe I've wrote on this last time. come on Japanese, show the world how will you do it so that the rest of us can learn.